Was god trying to make me feel better? 10pts.?

I don't go to church or pray or anything and a lot of times I say I don't bealive in god and I'm into stuff like black magic and I like vampires and stuff but before I was really depressed and wanted to kill myself because I have no friends well only one but he's my ex but were still friends he treats me like crap and breaks my heart and hurts my feelings and stuff but I put up with it because its better then nothing I'm in special ed but only because I cut myself not because I'm dumb I'm actually really smart and like to write, but the only one that really cares for me is my mom my dad is abusive and I just hate my life, and before I don't know how to pray so I just started talking to god asking him to help and make me feel better that I want. His help, and I was upset and now I feel better, like happy like positive and for some reason my bad emosions are gone like really gone I feel like a rock was lifted and I feel loving and stuff is that him? How do I know if he's here? Is he? Thanks, and I'm not really a prayer so how do I go about letting god into my life? Thanks